I haven't been around the site here for a while for a couple reasons. The first big one is that I had a miscarriage 2 weeks ago. We were devastated. I have felt very empty inside since. I disappeared for a while from work on sick leave and kept out of the social life for a bit to get through this hell on earth. I am slowly coming round and back to myself again. Trevor and I are presently on our little vacation that we planned back before Christmas to Vancouver visiting some friends and it has definitely been the best medication. We needed to just get away from everything and everyone to get ourselves back on our feet again. I still have moments of weakness but it's getting better.
This brings me then to the second reason I have been away from here. Trevor and I (as mentioned above) are on a little getaway, recharging our batteries trip to Vancover, British Columbia. We will be here a week tomorrow and we don't return back to Newfoundland until Monday, April 27th. This trip has been a world of good to us and it is certainly helping us get through the loss of the baby. As Trevor keeps telling me, as well as the doctor who looked after us during the miscarriage, I am a touch ole bird and will get through this. I have seen an improvement in me since. I know this trip is what the doctor ordered for us both. It is keeping our mind occupied and refreshing us. We are staying with friends that live here in downtown Vancouver and have been experiencing many wonderful things. Actually Trevor knows these two people more than I as Dennis is his best friend. His wife, Lauren is a lovely individual too and she has really helped me though this more than she knows. She and I have got to know each other alot more this past week and she has taken me places that every girl needs from time to time. While our fellas did their male bonding, we spent the day shoe shopping, had high tea at one of the local 5 star hotels, then headed to a little spa where she had a pedicure and I had a french manicure. We had a really good chat about what happened to me and it helped. It was the first time I really spoke about it outside of Trevor and my Mum and it really helped.
Anyway, I thought after 2 weeks have past and I haven't been posting, I wanted to drop you all a little note to say I am doing okay under the circumstances. Over the last couple of weeks I was just not ready to talk about it or hear the condolences. We hope to try again soon having a family.
I'll be away for a bit still as we are on holidays, but I'll peek in again soon.
Once we are home, I'll be keeping myself busy with settling into my new house and making it a home. I hope also to get started on my sewing studio. I have been quilt making deprived for a while now and looking forward to creating again. Before we know it we will be back to life routine of work and play. For now we plan to enjoy the rest of our little holiday here with our friends Dennis and Lauren.