Hi all..

I haven't been around the site here for a while for a couple reasons. The first big one is that I had a miscarriage 2 weeks ago. We were devastated. I have felt very empty inside since. I disappeared for a while from work on sick leave and kept out of the social life for a bit to get through this hell on earth. I am slowly coming round and back to myself again. Trevor and I are presently on our little vacation that we planned back before Christmas to Vancouver visiting some friends and it has definitely been the best medication. We needed to just get away from everything and everyone to get ourselves back on our feet again. I still have moments of weakness but it's getting better.

This brings me then to the second reason I have been away from here. Trevor and I (as mentioned above) are on a little getaway, recharging our batteries trip to Vancover, British Columbia. We will be here a week tomorrow and we don't return back to Newfoundland until Monday, April 27th. This trip has been a world of good to us and it is certainly helping us get through the loss of the baby. As Trevor keeps telling me, as well as the doctor who looked after us during the miscarriage, I am a touch ole bird and will get through this. I have seen an improvement in me since. I know this trip is what the doctor ordered for us both. It is keeping our mind occupied and refreshing us. We are staying with friends that live here in downtown Vancouver and have been experiencing many wonderful things. Actually Trevor knows these two people more than I as Dennis is his best friend. His wife, Lauren is a lovely individual too and she has really helped me though this more than she knows. She and I have got to know each other alot more this past week and she has taken me places that every girl needs from time to time. While our fellas did their male bonding, we spent the day shoe shopping, had high tea at one of the local 5 star hotels, then headed to a little spa where she had a pedicure and I had a french manicure. We had a really good chat about what happened to me and it helped. It was the first time I really spoke about it outside of Trevor and my Mum and it really helped.

Anyway, I thought after 2 weeks have past and I haven't been posting, I wanted to drop you all a little note to say I am doing okay under the circumstances. Over the last couple of weeks I was just not ready to talk about it or hear the condolences. We hope to try again soon having a family.

I'll be away for a bit still as we are on holidays, but I'll peek in again soon.

Once we are home, I'll be keeping myself busy with settling into my new house and making it a home. I hope also to get started on my sewing studio. I have been quilt making deprived for a while now and looking forward to creating again. Before we know it we will be back to life routine of work and play. For now we plan to enjoy the rest of our little holiday here with our friends Dennis and Lauren.

Quiltingly Yours
Andrea

Andrea, My heart goes out to you.... Time is the best healer, and you are doing the right thing to just relax and empty the mind....... You are strong and will adjust to this as many others have before....Love, Susie

I am so sorry. Here comes a hug.

Oh, I'm so sorry for you loss. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Oh Andrea (and Trevor),
I am so very sorry that you have to deal with such a sad situation. Hope the little getaway with your DH and good friends will help you through the pain. Just come back when you are ready.

Big hug from California.

I am so sorry for the loss you two have suffered. Try and enjoy your getaway and remember you are fondly thought of often. Take Care, Maribeth

So sorry Andrea and for Trevor .
Darlene

Many Hugs to you.

So sorry for your loss

So sorry to hear of your circumstances. I'm sure the holiday will prove good for both you and DH. Glad you felt close enough to all on this board to open up. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

PQ
Rebecca

I am so sorry to hear about your's and Trevor's loss. I am glad that your friends in Vancouver have been such a help to you both! We will look forward to seeing you back here, when you are ready.

{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

Consider this a hug from a mom who has shared in your sorrows. How wonderful for you to be on a trip with your husband during this difficult time. Hmm do I smell a thank you quilt brewing for your friends?

My hope is you heal well & Quickly. Love life! Times are tough, hug your man often, and saying I love you is always a comfort in any situation.
God bless you both,
Warmly from Alaska :)

I am so sorry for yours and Trevors loss. I can't even begin to imagine how you feel.

Take care of yourself.

So sorry, Andrea. Wishing you all the best. It does get easier.

I am so sorry for your loss Andrea and Trevor!!!

More condolences from here too, life's so unfair sometimes.

Glad your having a good break away.... look after each other.

((hugs))

{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}
Thinking of you with Love.
Sincerely,
Cheryl

Sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I think you and Trevor are doing what the doctor ordered, relax, and get to feeling better.

I am so sorry about your lose. You both are doing the right thing to get away and recharge. The lose of a baby now matter what age is tragic. Enjoy your time and thank GOD for friends and new friends.
BillsBonBon

I will be thinking about both of you.

You have a tiny angel, bless you

Oh Andrea, I am so sorry. Hugs to you and Trevor.

I'm so sorry for your loss....

Enjoy your vacation -- the rest of the world can just a little while you recharge and heal!

If I can do something for you, please let me know, OK???

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You're tougher than you think, but you still need to take care of yourself, and it sounds like that's what your vacation is all about. Take care.

Keeping you and Trevor in my thoughts.

Andrea, I am so sorry for your loss. I too know your sorrow and I then had 3 kids in 3 years and 18 days, so you can heal and go forth and procreate.

Enjoy your time away!

Big hugs to you girl!
Enjoy your time away.
Don't forget to post pictures! :)

BIG HUGS to both of you and prayers.

Andrea, I'm so sorry for your loss. You both will be in my thoughts, and I'm so glad you were able to get away for awhile.

You both are in my prayers during this difficult time.
Take care of each other.
Kendra

Hope the two of you enjoy your time recharging. Hugs

Praying for you. I am so sorry for your loss.

Andrea--I am so sorry for yours and Trevor's loss.

Am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and hugs coming your way.

Sorry for your loss...
Big hugs to you and Trevor...
Kirsten

Oh honey, I am so sad for you. Hope your trip helps some. Let me send you a big ((((((((((((((hug))))))))))))))) and I am praying for you.

(((((hugs))))))

Nice to see you back again. Take care.

Enjoy your trip out here in lotus land. Hope it hasn't rained on you too much!!
Be sure to eat some ethnic food while in Vancouver. Looking for pictures.