You are not alone and you are not stupid LOL. I hate to get a pattern and it only gives directions for cutting all the blocks at once. I like to just make one block to see if I like it or if the pieces fit or whatever. I'd prefer directions for just one block and then I could multiply the number of pieces if I want to make more.
I'm sure you'll find something to do with all those pieces. Just keep staring at them, maybe with a glass of wine in one hand and a piece of chocolate in the other.