Thanks to everyone who replied about my fear of the color yellow it was very much appreciated your kind thoughts let me know that there are so many kind people in the world.
As for my ex mother in law my mom gave me some advice that I lived by " kill her with kindness". So I did. I never let her know how much she hurt me and I did every kind thing I could do for her. I can live with myself because I never did a mean thing to her.
I can't wait for my secret Santa box to get here and I'm having such a great time shopping for mine. This is the time of the year.