Lv2sew and pndnana, my heart is out to both of you. A new life to look forward to but the loss of others. I was in the same place as both of you when my Father passed away but he always told me he had no regrets and had lived the fullest life he could. He was ready to go to his other life, sure didn't make it any easier for me but does it ever for any of us? But he told me to do the things that I enjoyed and think of him smiling down at me because I was doing it. I do the sewing and quilting and think of him often, sometimes even cry, then I laugh at myself....knowing I am going on with what makes me happy and him also. I truly hope your pain subsides and you both will keep those happy thoughts with you.