I'm sorry to hear of your sister's death...
I have never made a large quilt. I've made a few barely double size bed quilts is all.
This past winter I made 16 40X60 inch comfort quilts for nursing homes and others who were home bound.
I made 4 lap blanket size quilts in 2 weeks when I did little else around the farm!
If you're not enjoying it...don't continue...do something else you enjoy. :lol: