Wow if this was the first you started with a very advanced pattern. No quilt is perfect. They are made by imperfect people so how can they be perfect.
Keeping busy is the only way to get passed the awful pain. It works for mental and Physical pain. I have used it for helping me with cronic pain and it works. The pain does not go away but our mind is focused on something else and the pain recedes. I hope I making sense as I know I tend to ramble