OH MATTEE! I do HEAR you girlfriend! When I was in highschool I LOVED TO SEW. Went to school for custom clothing design, and it was perfection, perfection, perfection. I no longer LOVED to sew. (And I was pretty good before College too.) By the time College and Clients finished with me, what had began as pure joy had become something different. It it just now it really appeals to again. My wise Uncle said someone advised him to be certain to save SOMETHING he enjoyed as "just a hobby" so it would not be spoiled for him. Seems like pretty good advise. THIS IS A HOBBY! ENJOY YOURSELF! : - D