Hmmmm......Are you afraid of cutting all that lovely fabric???? You said you had to rip out stuff. Do you feel pressured to make something perfect and fabulous since you've spent all that money on fabric. Have you made sewing into a chore instead of fun. Thinking up and putting together all the material for a project takes time and concentration...not something you have energy for after work, kids, and the house. Buy a little wallhanging or other pre put together kit and just enjoy the therapy of sewing.