I think u need a " Man " break. I love my DH dearly, but there r times I just need some " Me " time. I count the days when he goes on hunting trips or to see his folks. Yes, I miss him, but its a good miss. Sounds like ur worn out and tired. Please just take a big breath and let some of ur "to do" things go. I know u want everything perfect for Christmas but take time to be gentle with urself. And u may have to tell him that u can't help, that u r to busy.