Esq., it's brilliant that you felt up to coming here and letting us know about your troubles, that's a huge step.
Re the breakup, I have been there, done that, and had the depression and counselling too, so I can guess at some of what you might have gone through. As suggested, if you can, try one block - it's a big step, but then you have already made the biggest one coming back to us here. Well done you!