My heart goes out to you. My hubby was on his death bed all of December. Then he had heart surgery I know thew emptyness you must feel At several points they did not know if mine would walk again or have brain damage. I had to be strong and leave it in Gods hands and ask him not to let him suffer, He is home and it has been a long scarry haul. He is not out of the woods yet. hank God that he did not suffer. I know it is hard. He will always be there for yiou just talk to him. he sounds like he was a love. God bless you