I'm so sorry for your loss. Hopefully getting back into your quilting will keep your mind and hands busy, and each day will be a little easier on you. I lost my best friend of 42 years last August, and it's still hard to look at her picture and think about her for very long without crying. I hope you have a quilt group and/or guild meetings to go to. Friends can make such a difference in your life. I love the quilt you made. I've never seen that pattern. How big are the blocks? Good luck to you, you have a long road to go... take care!