I know exactly what you're talking about. Started having panic/anxiety attacks when I was 22, wasn't. Told I was chronic depressive until they had me on the suicide ward at the hospital when I was 38. Was hospitalized 3 more times in 2 years. Never found the right drugs for my depression, we have to change every three years because I have a high tolerence to medication so they don't work for long. Right now I am not on ab anti-depressant due to having a doctor who wants me to pick my own. I am a mess but looking for a new doctor. Depression is a battle ladies and then the meds they give you slow your metabolism down so you gain weight which really helps your mood. If your depressed get help......