I can't imagine what you are going through. My husband travels for work - mostly just during the day but sometimes over night and when he does it just seems like everything goes wrong. There was a period of time where I couldn't wait for him to have an out of town trip so I could have just a little bit of peace - not now - I dread it now...I'm on edge the entire time he is travelling....so all I can do is send a cyber hug your way because I can't imagine how frayed you are after all this time!