My heart goes out to you... thee is nothing wrong with melt downs. i think it must be God's way of speaking to our hearts that it's time to let it lose. Your tears will give you release, crying in front of your child will allow him to grow up knowing moms do cry and have feelings. When you husband is away it leaves you vulerable and shows you just how much you really do rely on your man. So when he comes home allow your love to grow remembering these times seperated. Remember to jump up getting him that extra cup of coffee and extra pat on back or shoulder as passing by.. So many little things we forget till they ae not in front of us. Your remembering will bring warmth to his heart and him doing all the things that you funble to do will bring you joy and warmth to your heart. God made us this way for good reasons. to always appreciate wha we have ((((hugs)))) and many special blessings just for you this day. :)