My heart goes out to you. I pray for your husbands safe return and for a healing of your heart. My husband is a disabled Veteran. Just give your son extra love and let him see you cry there is nothing wrong with that. Mom's have feelings too and kids need to see that and they also need to know that dad's also have feelings and there is nothing wrong if dad cries either. I salute your husband for serving our country. And I salute you for being in your husbands life especially now when you are feeling so down. No matter what, some days will be hard and some days will fly by like the wind blowing through the weeping willow tree. I kept a journal for a long time. It really helped me by writing down my thoughts and feelings. October will be here before you know it and he will be home. Sorry your mom just didnt understand. And Im thankful that your neighbor is going to help you. Take care. Breath Deep and have a cup of hot tea and a chocolate bar. God Bless you.