I hope today is better for you. By any chance, is there a support group you could join. My son is Air Force and his wife tries desperately to connect with other families. For a while they lived in an area where there were no military families. Now they live on base and she is much happier. I know that probably isn't your case, but seeking a support group, if even on line, would be very helpful. Hugs to you and your kids. I wish you many less stressful days.