I totally relate, but if I get into my project then I enjoy the process. I suggest you not look behind or forward, but to the present. Each day can be filled with fun. Believe you have many wonderful days ahead of you. If you have a group of friends it may help to make plans to work on projects together, or go out for coffee and a LQS for inspiration. We seniors are the new hip majority generation sure to influence and make changes. Wear your favorite color, celebrate your stash, and I wish you much fun in the process.