After checking out your purchase, I think that possibly, you went for your doctorate before you got your plain ol' standard degree. Those designs look daunting, to say the least. Draw yourself out some easy swirls on a sandwich and try that, then progress from there. I sure bleed for you as I have struggled with FMQ and probably always will, and I don't have much time left to get-it either, but I do the best I can and let it go at that. No sense beating a old dead grandma, I will never be a Charisma, but I forge ahead the best I can. So, I assume that you are much younger and you just keep trying and eventually, you will progress to acceptable and maybe even to "wow".