Cindy, keep your spirits up. Drag yourself out even when you don't want to. I've been through what you're going through. You need to make yourself do things!!!! Depression is an ugly thing and if you don't fight it, it will win. I have faith in God and myself, and when it strikes, I strike back. Strike back Cindy!!!!! The more you get out and moving the better you're gonna feel. And this job thing takes time. I know you don't want to hear that, but it does. Took me almost a year, but I ended up with the perfect job for me at this time in my life. And I ended up with another whole group of awesome friends in the process. I'm not a "Jesus Freak" and I don't go shouting the word, but I do believe that he has a plan for all of us and we may not agree or understand but eventually everything works out. Keep the faith!!!
And remember, you have all of us to vent to!!!! Vent away!!!!