Welcome from Ontario, Canada. Sorry you have lost your mother. When my best friend and quilting buddy passed away suddenly a couple of years ago it put me into a blue funk. I was having a hard time sitting down to my machine or looking at fabric. I signed up for a small wallhanging class even though I didn't feel like it. I didn't want to shop for it or go but I did and had a good day. It seemed to snap me put of my depression and maybe it could work or you.