No "wonderful speaker" should ever send you away feeling worse than you did before you heard the speech. She speech should have inspired you to keep on keeping on, just as Vonnegut suggested. I just don't understand why everything has to be a competition. I am reminded of the man who bought a cello and played just one note on it. His longsuffering wife finally suggested to him that other cellists move their fingers and bow differently. "Oh, yes," he answered. "They are looking for the perfect note. I have found it." If you are trying to make the perfect quilt you will probably dirive yourself and everyone around you crazy. froggyintexas