Barb, I will be praying for you and your family not just for the immediate but for the future. We can plan, we can project how we will deal with the passing of a family member, but when we walk it out, it is so often not what we envisioned. I will always mourn the passing of my parents but it ebbs and flows. Seek comfort in your faith, comfort in your friends and most of all comfort in your family. Leaning on one another seemed to be the best of healing balms for me and I hope for you too. Relax, we can carry on here just fine. Re-join us when YOU are ready.