I made my first quilt in 1970 and became really hooked on hand quilting . This is the part of making a quilt that I am passionate about. The only part I don't enjoy is the sandwiching of layers. Give yourself a break, you probably will like it more after a while. I have a friend who turns out about 12 big quilts a year but she always sends them to an expert long-arm quilter to finish which is expensive and impersonal. I prefer to do my own. Good luck in your future with this.