Gywn, just take it minute by minute. My husband was killed in a car crash in June. The rawness is slowly getting better. Be kind to yourself and remember everyone deals with grief in their own way(no one right way). As for making decisions - friends would want to take me out for dinner and want me to pick where to eat and that was too overwhelming to decide. One day I want to be very busy and the next I don't want to do anything but stare at the wall. I told my son that life sucks - he said no just this chapter. So I know there were good chapters and I await a better chapter. And I wish your next chapter to be a better one too! Take Care!