They must call this grandma wars! Dont sweat it, do what you can do best for your grandchildren and give of yourself what is unique. In the long run at the end of the day they will remember you, what you did, and appreciate you for who you are. DO NOT let the passing moment of I wish I had done that spoil your life. I can think of several instances where I did things from the heart for my grandchildren and didn't think they noticed or appreciated until it was later mentioned. Kids see and do not forget. Your were wise not to share your feelings out loud, this was the perfect place to vent. Hats off to you from another grandma.
