I'm so sorry for your loss, it's that time of life for many of us.
I made the dear jane in the late 90's and gifted my book and templates on to someone here on the board.
But it is in the DJ EQ as Two Sides Of Jane, and I loved making it, certainly made a better piecer out of me.
I had the other book with the CD but was dissatisified with it and gifted it on.
Sometimes we just need to refill the well, I've found when I was in a stagnet puddle to give myself some compassion.