Gwyn, So sorry. I don't know what you should do but I know what you shouldn't. I lost my dear husband in jan 08 and I sit and look out the window and have illness on top of illness, can't turn the tv off at night and seldom sleep longer than an hour. It has taken a huge toll on my health so listen to those who say go out. I try from time to time but just haven't been able to grab on to life again yet. Moved right away which was a mistake but a financial necessity so left all my friends and live on an isolated ranch. Please listen to these wise people and don't get into my fix.