Barbs right. Could you learn to draw them up right? There is a free pdf program. But do you have a computer or do you use your mom's? I would start saving your designs and like Barb said think how to reach your goals. You found something (and I know other things) that you are really good at, and you enjoy it. That makes it even better! Oh by the way. EQ has contest periodically for disigns and other companies do too. I usually list them in leads. Next time I list one or know of one I will let you know. In the meantime do a quilt contest or sweepstake search. Just think if you won money for one of your designs then you could get the stuff you needed. :D You never know, just one way to try, along with lot's of others. :D