I can't buy fabric, as I am disabled and have not got SSS yet. so what I have is from the wonderful people on the board. There are a lot of patterns I want to do, but don't have the yardage to do them. I have the one pattern that Dunster designed and that a quilt angle sent me, but that has to wait until I have just the right fabric to start, as that will be a special quilt. because it is my dream quilt and someone so kind sent the pattern that I could not buy. sewing causes a lot of pain for me, so I force myself to sit at the machine longer then 10 minutes, so know I sew one day and I am down the next in unbearable pain, but this is how I do it now so I can complete a project. I am just learning to quilt and I love it. so I will deal with the pain. so maybe you could force yourself to sew one day and take the next day off, until you have the quilt done. God bless you and I am so so sorry for your lose. Penny