I have my BGFs cutter and her sewing box. I talk to them sometimes and it helps me to deal with the loss of her. Grief is a hard road if you go it alone, remember that this community is here for you. Be gentle with yourself, and try to let others in. As one who also has few close friends, I took a long time to let someone in again, in case they died too. I am letting others in now, and it is making my life easier. I grieved for 3 years over her death, and still miss her every day. Rain.