The first. I too lost my GM in 2000. She did not quilt or any craft exc. a brief knitting foray. She made a shawl that she gave to me as I was (and still am) the only sewer,crafter in family. She knew I would love it. I DO.
When missing her, I wrap it around me and know how much I was loved. Could you do the same and feel her energy and guidance?