quite often, if you see a pattern you like in one place, you can also find something very similar somewhere else.
there are bazillions of free pattern sites on the internet. just about every fabric manufacturer offers them at their factory website. most quilting magazines have websites that offer at least a few freebies to attract new subscribers. many hundreds of other independent online sources, too.
hunt down some freebies. it'll make you feel better. i promise. ;-)