Missy: I want you to succeed more than anything. Since you have a couple months, I suggest you start talking to someone who can help you adjust mentally to being smaller. It is so exciting to get healthy, but at some time you will need some smaller clothes. It is scary for me...what do I do with my fat clothes? I have part of my identity wrapped in being fat. If I am not fat, I lose part of me - literally and figuratively. Who am I without the bulky, husky body. This is when people start going back to the old ways. They love that soft, jiggly sort of person and miss them. I'm going to go to someone who deals with eating disorders after I get under 200. I never want to have to do this again.