Originally Posted by Gwyn
Missy: I want you to succeed more than anything. Since you have a couple months, I suggest you start talking to someone who can help you adjust mentally to being smaller. It is so exciting to get healthy, but at some time you will need some smaller clothes. It is scary for me...what do I do with my fat clothes? I have part of my identity wrapped in being fat. If I am not fat, I lose part of me - literally and figuratively. Who am I without the bulky, husky body. This is when people start going back to the old ways. They love that soft, jiggly sort of person and miss them. I'm going to go to someone who deals with eating disorders after I get under 200. I never want to have to do this again.
I see my therapist every Monday morning here at my house. She comes for an hour each week. She is really working with me on the mental part of this journey. Plus I get the encouragement of the IMPACT team that comes here the rest of the week. It is such a good thing that I have someone that comes here every day. Yeah, the bring me my meds each day but they also keep me focused. That is invaluable. I just cannot say enough about the mental healthcare available here. It is wonderful.
The surgeon and the internist both told me last month that I should buy at least one outfit a month so I do not feel like I have to be in the huge baggie clothes. They said doing that really helps the mental outlook and makes us feel better about ourselves.
I am on a freecycle group where I am giving my bigger clothes to others for free. They come and get them and it makes me happy knowing they are going to someone who needs them. I am keeping my biggest outfit though. I want that for the before/after pics.
I totally understand never wanting to go through this again! I do not want to ever see the numbers 400 on a scale again! EVER! I am going to celebrate when I see 399 on that scale. You can count on that. :D
Thank you Gwyn. You are such an encouragement and support for me!
Missy