Hi! I'm sorry to say I did not know about your husband's passing. If I had I would have sent my condolences, and let you know that I have gone through the same thing. I know your hurt and the "unsettled" feeling of suddenly being on your own without your partner. My husband passed from cancer in 1996. It was a devastating experience.
I hope you have started putting your life back together again. While it can be a daunting thing to ponder, life does go on, and your life will begin to feel "normal" again some time in the future. Hang in there, and depend on your friends and family for emotional support like you never have before. Let them know you need them, and don't be afraid to show it!!
Glad you got a lot of support from the ladies here. They are great, aren't they?
Cheers!!! Janice