Missy, no one will look down on you because of your starting weight on this page. We are ALL here because we feel we need to lose weight. Wouldn't be here if we didn't feel that way. I am very large as well, and have longed to be able to have the gastric bypass but my insurance won't cover it, and I can't afford it. I keep plugging away at it and I know you will too. I will keep you in my prayers. It's obvious that you are doing something right!! Doctors won't even consider you for surgery unless they have confidence that you will be able to stick with the diet and exercise regimen after surgery. So you have all of us believing in you and your doctors too, right? Have faith in God and yourself and you will do just fine!!