I have always been creative, stained glass, goldsmithing, painting, etc. I had this picture in my mind of what I wanted to do. When it didn't end up looking like that picture, I thought I had failed. It took me many years to see that I had actually improved on the original. Now I can't follow a pattern because I look and see where it can be improved. I am a much happier camper now but it has taken many years to get here.