My heart feels you! My ex husband just recently came back from serving in Iraq, he is still active, but state side. Well my son, and I decided it would be a great opportunity for him to spend some time with his dad, so he is spending this school year, 10th grade, with him. I miss him so much. I have pretty much raised him for 15 years by myself, as I have no family close either. I don't have a mom, and my dad lives 2 hours away. Sometimes REAL hugs are better than smiles in pictures. Have a wonderful trip, and don't fell guilty at all! :)