Mary , I'm so sorry about your lost love, but it may not be lost forever! But if it is I hope you have some wonderful memories to keep.
I have to go with, if your bills are past due pay them, sometimes that's why we get these little money blessings, because we NEED them. If you can pay your bills on time then by all means spend that money on yourself! I am currently saving all the extra money that comes my way because I want a top of the line machine but don't want to make another monthly note. It's hard but it's not like I can't sew untill I get one.
Good luck with whatever you do, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY I hope your cheetos get there in time to cheer you up!