My heart goes out to you in this difficult adjustment in life. Just "hang in there" as the saying goes, time DOES heal -- we never get over missing our loved ones but we do learn to cope better. I think of it as a cut on our finger -- it hurts alot at first but heals and leaves a scar which will always be there but does not hurt. I was a widow at 33 years of age and over the years have lost parents and other near and dear to me so I speak from experience. Mrs. Sew 'n Sew