Don't feel bad about learning on your own. I am teaching myself hand applique also, and making large blocks. I am using a big wooden embroidery hoop, but it still takes finesse, and that takes time.
If I don't like how it is coming out, I can either take the stitching back out and do it again, or tell myself, well, this is a learning experience!
Here are the first 2 cowgirl boots that will go in a quilt with sashing when I have about a dozen.