Dora,
I understand the need to cut out unnecessary things right now and I hope things turn around. Please remember that most libraries have free computers with internet access that you could use to visit the QB occasionally. Also, if you have a laptop, you can go to a Barnes and Noble or Starbucks, and you can access the internet through their system for free.
We would like to know that you are joining when you can and and certainly we will all be interested in how things are going with you.