Originally Posted by trupeach1
Originally Posted by MissyGirl
Yesterday, things started going downhill for me. I am very down and am hearing voices. The voices are telling me that I have not made one notable contribution in my lifetime. I suppose that maybe my life must be over. At least that is what is going on in my head.
Coincidently I am scheduled to see the psychiatrist this morning.
I just have no idea what to do. My mom and sister said they are worried about me.
Oh well. I cannot type anymore.
Missy
Missy hang in there. what your voices are saying to you I think that in my head to myself. So is it voices or is it your own little voice that is in your head? There is a difference. I think why bother, why bother to watch TV it is not real. Why bother to clean the house no one comes here. Why bother to make another quilt we all have enough do we really need anymore? When bother to get dressed. I ask over and over why bother??????? Missy it is called questioning life. You will be fine. I tried to call but no one answered and it didn't go to voice mail. Everyone has little voices that talk to them you are not different. Maybe you think you are but you are not. The voices are not crazy voices they are your own little voice questioning and that's OK we all do it. Don't panic, calm down. you have a family here we all love you. Your life isn't over, you are moving on and upward. You will have yoru surgery and you will be a healthier you. This is what I do with my vertigo I say I will get through this day, hour, minute, second. I think I can not do this anymore I can not live like this I don't want to live like this. I have no life, yes I am alive but I can't go out I can't do anything. I look at the clock and think OK I made it 5 minutes can I do it for another minute. I wait for the night and then at night I wait for the morning and hope I will have a better day. You can do the same take it a minute or second at a time and before you know it it might be a hour or two or even a day or 3 and then everything will be OK again. You can do it you HAVE to do it.
{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
Thank you so much Tru. I wish it were that way with the voices. But, it is not. When I am in a situation like this the hallucinations begin and the voices are part of the hallucinations.
My psychiatrist is getting a blood level of the cloziril (my antipsychotic med) and then will increase my dosage of the drug. It is time. I have been on this same dosage for over a year now.
I just feel so down and out and the voices say horrible things to me right now. I am not in a place mentally right now to be able to explain schizophrenia but I know there is a psych nurse on here who can explain it much better than me.
I am sorry that I have dumped my garbage on the group today. I hope you do not get mad at me.
Missy