Originally Posted by MissyGirl
Yesterday, things started going downhill for me. I am very down and am hearing voices. The voices are telling me that I have not made one notable contribution in my lifetime. I suppose that maybe my life must be over. At least that is what is going on in my head.
Coincidently I am scheduled to see the psychiatrist this morning.
I just have no idea what to do. My mom and sister said they are worried about me.
Oh well. I cannot type anymore.
Missy
I feel so bad for you. I don't have skitzophrenia so I don't know how you feel,but I did have a period of about two months where where voices kept telling me to do weird things like if I didn't take two extra steps I would be hit by a car. So I felt forced to do whatever the voices said. It was during that time that I became very depressed, I was suicidal and I had a plan to injure another person. It scared the crap out of me, I felt so out of control because I HAD to do what it seemed at the time that something other than myself was making me do.
Anyway, my point is that the anti-depression medication really, really helped but it took about a month.
While everyone on this board knows you are a valuable member of society and you have a lot to give I do understand that it is easier to listen to the stupid voices. Easier is the wrong word but I don't know the right word. For me the voices felt right and everything didn't. In hindsight it is clear that the voices were meaningless.
It is my sincere hope that these voices leave you alone! I feel bad for you because I remember how desperate I felt when I couldn't get the voices to shut up.
I am very sorry to hear about your boyfriend, you really didn't need that right now and it isn't fair.
I will pray for you