For me it is anything with Hawaiian fabrics or turtles. Maybe you can see what makes you feel good in the past or has positive memories. My youngest son was adopted from Hawaii and it was one of the most special times in my life. Even if you can not buy fabric right now that would be thematic maybe you can paperpiece or do a pattern that reminds you of it. Sending you hugs and prayers. Maybe a light house pieced pattern with the beautiful poem you wrote?