I have been home for9 months desperate for a job. I go through mood swings that will drive anyone crazy. DH is a saint for putting up with this. I have days when I cry all day, the next day sew all day. I am enrolled in school part time so when I am not sewing or having a pity party I study. So far I finished two of my classes with an A and have one more final the day before Thanksgiving. Then I get 6 weeks off before I start school again, this time full time.
Take it one day at a time and don't bottle up your feelings. Let them out. It feels good. Good luck finding another job if that is what you want to do.