All it takes is one step. You made the biggest step by writing this today we are all here for you! You are NOT alone please feel free to PM me I would be happy to help in any way I can. I hope you have some support near you. I will cheer you on every step of the way!!! Sometimes the best gift you can give is your time your ear a simple word of encouragement. Those gifts are the cherished ones! God will give what is lost and taken away just be patient and He will fullfil his promise :)