I think with age comes a relaxation. The older I get the less the little things seem to matter. I do enjoy Christmas as I do most holidays. I used to get depressed on Mother's Day because I'd had so many miscarriages. Mom would tell me to enjoy the day for her. Now that she's gone I realize what she was saying and that's my one regret---that I'll never get those days back, that I couldn't let go of my own hurt for her sake. Melinda, please find a way to let go of the hurt if for no other reason than for your kids/grandkids. There's nothing you can do to change the past, only enjoy the future. I know, my father got killed on our wedding anniversary 7 years ago. It took a while to let go of that.
Now, that said, Merry Christmas to all. Christmas will come and it will go whether the cookies all get baked or not, no matter if all the dusting is done. Just take time to enjoy each day of the season. Staying within ALL budgets---money, time and energy---will always make it more enjoyable.